There are absolutely no tools for me to write a post. No insert link, no italicize or bold font. Now I can’t even upload a photo to my text? Well, there goes the rest of my night blogging…
I’ve never really taken part in Lent, since I’m not religious, but I’ve always found the concept intriguing. The idea of giving up something seemed like a good thought, whether or not for its religious purpose.
I’ve told a close friend that I wanted to participate this year, but I didn’t know what to give up. Knowing some of the personal problems I’ve been having, she said:
"Give up giving in."
I can’t help it. It’s just the way I am. But I always end up saying “yes” to everybody, because I try to please everyone. Yet I end up doing all the work, I get all stressed out, and everyone wonders why I’m so irritable and quick to snap at my students when they get too wild. Because I pick up EVERYONE’S slack.
All of my students’ art projects end up as mine because I did it for them. All the teachers compliment how “nice” it looks, but I just feel miserable. The art work looks so controlling. It lost all of its uniqueness that’s a part from each of my students. The only thing that the students did was stamp their handprint, but even then, I was the one who painted their hands and strategically placed it on the construction paper.
I did a project with them that I went step-by-step with them, and they followed direction really well. I was so proud of them! The end product wasn’t very “pretty”, but it was theirs. Later, the lead teacher deemed that they didn’t do a very good job with following directions (since the placement of all the pieces didn’t line up where it was supposed to), and declared that we shouldn’t do that project next year, and instead do the “Horton Hears a Who” handprint, where I had to draw all of the Horton faces myself.
We’re going to have 24 students next school year. I can’t do everything for my students anymore. The amount of prep work is too overwhelming for me, my students aren’t learning anything from the activity, and worst of all, they don’t have a sense of pride in their own work. Because it isn’t their work.
With my long work hours, I’m too exhausted to do any household chores. It might make a difference if I got a second job, but I can’t fit one into my schedule with my long work hours. Though I’m expected to contribute financially, but it’s just gotten too much for me. The whole reason why I stayed back and gotten this job was so that I could go back to school. I haven’t been able to save up at all for myself.
Eight years later, and I still don’t know how to be an adult. I don’t know how to take care of myself, and knowing that makes me feel so miserable, no matter how terrifying life and growing up may be. I can’t support them anymore. I can’t be enabling them anymore. I can’t be expected to. It might take me an extra couple of years to get there, but I need to learn to be on my own.
I’ve been tired, sick, and unhappy for a really long time. This is what I need to get give up for Lent.
… looking for something that I still can’t find. Halfway through the search, I actually even forgot what I was looking for in the first place. Eventually I gave up and finally ate some dinner. At least I found some old knick-knacks to donate to my classroom’s treasure box. I’m all caught up on my Tumblr dash now, so it’s time to do some serious blogging.
After midnight, I remembered what that third point was supposed to be about.
I was going to say that my both side blogs were going to have a monthly Thank You post, just like I do with my main blog (here’s the list for January 2014 as a sample; I’ve postponed the list for February 2014). The monthly post typically always goes up at 11:59 P.M. on the last day of the month. It’s my way of expressing my gratitude to you for taking the time to check out my blog. It really does mean a lot to me.
Also, I’ve wanted to mention about my reblogs, that any posts with Jack and Jamie in it, if the theme is “belief”, it will more likely show up on The Wonderfully Quirky Adventures of Pinennett. If the theme is “growing up”, then it more likely show up on A Slice of Jamiecake. This is just a way for me to organize my posts.
While both blogs carry both themes, I’ve decided to split it up so I can balance out an even amount of posts between the two blogs. In The Wonderfully Quirky Adventures of Pinennett, Jamie’s belief in the Guardians is particularly important since this is how he and Dipper connect as friends. In A Slice of Jamiecake, the friendship between Jamie and Cupcake have already been established (as we have seen in the film), so it is likely that they both grow up for the rest of their time in Burgess together. Jack is around to experience that.
Well, that’s it for the update today. I need to get ready to go back to work in half an hour. Hopefully I’ll start posting some good posts for you to digest. I heard that it’s Jack Frost Week, and I just might participate. I’ve already sketched out a plan that will be posted on A Slice of Jamiecake (Don’t worry. I’ve have an idea for The Wonderfully Quirky Adventures of Pinennett in my head, too)!
1. I’ve added my side blogs to the sidebar, in case anyone else would be interested. The link is right underneath my personal blog, that way all the Tumblr links stay together.
2. I’ve been cleaning out my “Likes” and got 20 to 30 posts saved in my drafts. I do this because I like to balance out my posts between original content and reblogs (I then organize that by text and photo posts, and content.
3. There was supposed to be a third point here, but I don’t remember what that was. I should’ve gone to bed 40 minutes ago. I’ll mention something later if I ever remember it… Hopefully I’ll start posting more stuff soon. Queuing everything up to put some good stuff up. But for now, I should go to bed. Another big week ahead. Hoping it turns out to be a decent one.
… I just hope the rest of it goes better, or that I at least can make it through.
Character Designs from The Princess and the Frog by Bill Schwab
I didn’t think I’d make my second side blog so soon, but here it is. There isn’t much now, but it’s a start.
A Slice of Jamiecake & Other Confections ships Jamiecake (Jamie & Cupcake), Blackcake (Pitch & Cupcake), and Cakefrost (Cupcake & Jack), and possibly some ships in-between!
If you’re a fan of DreamWorks Animation’s Rise of the Guardians, and like the characters Cupcake, Jamie Bennett, Pitch Black, and Jack Frost, then this just might be the place for you.